aworldofnonsense

This is gonna be my last post in sg. A long post i guess. I cant believe that I am leaving this week! Feeling really very sian bout this. Coz i am really NOT prepared especially up there in my MIND. I really feel like crying but i cant. I have been trying really hard to hold back my tears these times. Trying my best not to drop a single tear in front of my family, dearest, darling, cj, gene and jw. Cant say that I am feeling emo.. In fact, I just cant bear to leave everything behind. Really. I dun wish to make you guys worry but i really hope someone could fly there with me. I hate the feeling of flying there alone. When i enter the departure gate, that is the point where my life starts to change! I will be all alone and i dun want it. I have to be much stronger up there when i know i cant. I have to learn to stand up all by myself when i fall.

Sometimes, i just wanna hug my parents and cry in their arms. I kept asking them why cant they just fly there with me for 1 week. I know deep down, they really want to but they are just trying to help me to take my very first step out of my comfort zone in a hard way. If they fly there with me, it would be even tougher for me to step out of my comfort zone. I am so gonna miss my family truckloads and have to learn how to handle my emotions coz homesickness will make me feel more terrible.

Gene and jw. What a unique friendship we have. The friendship that will never end no matter how busy we are with our lives. It all started 9 years ago. The 2 guys who have been there for me, protecting me all these while. I am so gonna miss ya guys.. I am so gonna miss running with you. I am really touched when you guys decided to forgo your New Zealand trip and come over to Melb. I will countdown to the days you guys come over. I will miss you guys and thank you so much for being there for me all the time. Do keep in contact alright? If calls/sms are too ex for you guys, we can skype/email. So yep!! Dont leave me alone when i am there. Also, enjoy ur NS life..

Melvin. My wonderful boyfriend. I am so gonna miss your face, your smile, your hand, your hugs, your kiss, you ruffling my hair, piggybacks and the list goes on. There are so many things i wanna say to you but i dont know where should i start. Wait for me and hang in there ok??Please dun give up. I am so gonna look forward to JULY. I am so gonna countdown to JULY. To the day you come to melb and the day i come back during my summer hols. I love you, dear.

HI5. I am so gonna miss you guys and our weekly SAT meet ups. I am so gonna miss my darling. Do keep me updated with things ok? Also, PLEASE KEEP THE EMAIL GOING. Darling promised to visit me!! Must come ok?? You cant break your promised. Call/text me too, HI5!! Please take good care of yourselves and one another k?

Sometimes, i kept asking myself why did i choose this route? We have many choices to make in life. Well, since this is the path i have decided to take, no point regretting. Instead, i should make the best out of it.

Take care peepz.

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posted by aworldofnonsense @ 10:30 AM